So as someone who has faced infertility .. I can say the one phrase from people I hate the most was “just relax and it’ll happen”.. well I did that many times and many of those times it didn’t happen.. but God help me.. for whatever reason.. this time it did happen..
So where I left off .. I found out my HSG test for my Fallopian tubes showed they were clear.. so my husband and I decided that we were done trying, but we weren’t abstaining .. So we planned a trip to disney and set it all up and were ready to go.. and my cycles were all over the place.. so we live life and enjoy each other and don’t give a care in the world.. I also started to take Myoinositol because I kept hearing how well it works with PCOS .. so i said why not..
Anyway I follow my Fitbit to see if I’m having my cycles.. and if you didn’t know.. the Fitbit can tell you that you are pregnant or if your period is going to start.. and I’m watching my resting heart rate.. and it’s going up and staying there when it’s supposed to be dropping so I can get my period..
I took a pregnancy test .. and I was pregnant.. and I’m just thinking no way.. This can not be real.. so luckily I had progesterone that I had from when I was pregnant with my daughter and I start to take that.. I frantically stalk my doctor on facebook and message her.. asking her if she can help me with this pregnancy cause I was not a patient anymore technically .. and she agrees and welcomes me with open arms.. like it was a Sunday and she had me come in Monday.. I go in and they do the HCG .. and things are going up.. I’m on the Lovenox too.. and numbers are climbing and I’m so scared.. so she ends up going on vacation and this was when I was supposed to get an ultrasound to make sure baby is where it’s supposed to be..
A tech is there.. and she is checking my belly for the baby .. I’m 6 weeks along and she can not find the baby .. she just sees sack and there is nothing.. I am utterly devastated.. like how could this happen again .. I contemplate stopping my meds.. but I continue just in case.. I get a call from the clinic to go into the hospital to get checked again more thorough..
This was literally the next day .. and I’m praying so hard that there is a baby .. I get there to the hospital at 9 am in the morning and they take me back.. the tech is talking to me.. and I’m like.. I know you can’t tel me anything .. and she’s like I’m so sorry I cant.. and I’m just crying.. as she’s checking me.. She wishes me luck and sends me on my way.. I get a call from the clinic that they got the information from the tech and will be in touch with me..
So I’m waiting .. like my heart is pounding for hours.. because I am so scared.. I finally get a call at 5 pm.. from the clinic/.. she’s like did they talk to you in the hospital and I said no.. she’s like oh no they were supposed to talk to you there.. and I’m like nope.. and she’s like well there’s a baby there and everything looks great.. I am just floored.. how is this possible.. I am thanking God left and right.
This was my final pregnancy ..my 7th pregnancy ,, it was full of fear .. like seriously every single doctors appointment I wanted to pass out from how hard my heart was beating.. I was just waitin for loss.. I remember visiting my obgyn and th nurse could not find the heart beat… and from then on I swear I had some PTSD.. my bp was high .. and i was diagnoed with high blood pressure at 20 weeks or so.. and from then They said I had gestational diabetes and I was monitered like crazy ..
Weekly check ups.. NST/s and protein in urine checks.. literally the day of my csection I was having preeclampsia symptoms..
And with that I end this series.. I am finally done with this journey. But I want to leave this platform open for information.
I have/had Preeclampsia, HELLP, MTHFR, liver disease, Covid 19, shingles, and PCOS, post partum depression,… I’ve had 3 csections, one of which was an emergency, I’ve had a NICU baby . .. I nursed all my kids but also formula fed them too… i want anyone who has any questions to ask me. I want to eventually make a YouTube page. I have a tik tok .. I’m just nervous about going in front of a camera, but soon it’ll happen.